I don't know what I've been going through but I haven't even wanted to post anything. I have been so exhausted DUH I forgot I have lupus I'm always tired. I really feel like a broken record saying how tired I am. It seems like things are just getting harder and harder and I don't know about anyone else but when I'm not feeling good I also feel guilty. Guilty that I'm too tired to clean, cook, or even go anywhere. Guilty I'm not a good wife, mother or grandmother. I even feel guilty that I'm not working helping out with the bills.I wish there was a way I could be clear headed and not worry about all these things, but I think it has something to do with this crazy illness.